As a military wife you have to be able to plan, and then things change so you have to plan again, and again things change so you have to plan again... and this just keeps happening and happening!! I knew it would be like this going into it, I knew it would be difficult because everything pretty much has to be so last minute because plans change so quickly, but i never realized how hard that would be. In the last month my husband and I have planned for pretty much everything you could possibly think of. We have planned on him getting discharged, then that changed... we have planned on him not deploying with his unit and me moving out there for good, then that changed.... we have planned on him deploying with his unit and so me not moving out there, then plans changed.... and our current plan, we have planned on him deploying with his unit and me moving out there for a few short months! All I can say is I am drained... I feel like all our plans are so helter skelter and like we are forgetting things...important things.... right now the plan is for me to move out there one of the first few weeks of May, us getting base housing (since I will probably only be out there for a few months we decided it was better to get on base then something off base, and cheaper too!! and the reason we are able to is becaue brandon hasnt recieved his deployment orders yet so we can get housing and then once he gets his orders we will just show housing that and that is what will break our lease with them!) complicated ...I know but if we want to spend those last couple months together before deployment its what needs to be done.
However, not only are we planning and worrying about getting a place out in Cali, we are also trying to plan what to do for me back in Indiana/Ohio. Right now I have an apartment with a friend, however since originally we were planning on me moving to Cali for good this summer, she has found new roommates... so once I move out of here my options are get my own place, or move back home with my parents. For those of you who dont know this my parents and I have a pretty terrible relationship... thats where im going to leave that, but I really want to get my own place, but at the same time Im not sure if thats such a good idea while Brandon is deployed! idk.. there is still alot to think about with all that.
I just wish we had some answers ... like Yes he definetly will do this or wont do that, I hate playing games of not knowing, I hate questioning everything, and I hate not being able to plan for basically anytihng. Since we are 99% sure that I will only be in Cali for a few months when I say im "moving out there" really im just taking all my clothes I need on the plane and flying there, everything we need for a home is just gonna be boughten out there, and we are going to just live with exactly what we need, because im not going to turn this house into a home only to pack it all up a few months later... so our house will probably be pretty bare and have little to no decorations, but as long as my husband and I are together, thats really all I'm concerned about!!
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