How do you find the words to explain your situation, how do you find the words to convince not only everyone else, but also yourself that everything will work out alright! How do you know what is the best decision is, how do you know what decision is best when you dont have all the facts, when it feels like those who are supposed to be helping you seem to not truely have your best interests at heart? When it feels like they are doing only enough to get by and get their paycheck, like they dont really have your true interests at heart. This is definetly one thing that I really do NOT get about the military... how can they crucify one man and do something that is going to affect him the rest of his life without any proof, how come they wont rightfully, honestly and correctly investigate this case... why are they so set on doing this all the wrong way!!!! Why would they rather close this whole case and convict the wrong person instead of ttaking the time to find the actual person who did this... I dont get it and it really hurts... People not doing their jobs correctly is going to affect my husband and my life like its going too, and put us in such a difficult position... words dont justify how betrayed I feel, I lost I feel, and how completly helpless I feel.
What can I say to make my husband less stressed, Im scared to death but yet need to find the words to help him get through this, I need to find the words to make sure he knows I will always be here, no matter what shit either of us go through... I just feel like I have my hands tied behind my back, like no matter how hard I try or how much I want to help, I cant..I cant do anything, I cant make this go away...I cant help prove his innocence.. and I cant find the right words to explain any of it, or help make him feel better... I just feel so helpless, so insignificant, so worthless, so.. just not good enough!!! :( God please help us get through this... because it's way out of our hands now!!! <3
I said a prayer for you.
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