My husband :)

Since we are on opposite sides of the country for the time being, we send each other pictures multiple times a day! and I found a few this morning and just thought I would share of my most recent pic favorites!!:)

last day of the green camis :) He looks sexy, but gosh I cant wait for those deserts!!! <3

this is what he sent when I told him it was cold here back home, a picture showing the amazing weather out in Cali!! lol

this pic just cracks me up, we have this thing were we always joke about him not wearing his ring since im not out there, I joke that he only wears it when im around so he can pick up chicks, well he sent this pic right before he got out of the truck one weekend cause i kept picking on him about supposedly not wearing his ring!

And.... the deserts are back!!!:) gosh I sure do love him in those!!!:)

This pic is a little old, but I just think its adorable, and a reminder of how great of a dad he will be once we do have children!!

isnt he just soo handsome!!??

again a little old, but probably one of my most favorite pictures of him ever!!:)

<3

Looking at pictures of Brandon today, makes me feel closer to him, and I just need to keep reminding myself in just a few short months we will be together!!! not sure yet whether it will be together out in Cali, or together back home... but regardeless I know him and I will make it through either situation we need too!!! Still not sure what exactly is going on with everything, but by April we will know at least more of what direction things will be going in!! I really didnt have much to blog about today, but wanted to share these pics at least !! :)

"Caught between and rock and a harder place"

How do you find the words to explain your situation, how do you find the words to convince not only everyone else, but also yourself that everything will work out alright! How do you know what is the best decision is, how do you know what decision is best when you dont have all the facts, when it feels like those who are supposed to be helping you seem to not truely have your best interests at heart? When it feels like they are doing only enough to get by and get their paycheck, like they dont really have your true interests at heart. This is definetly one thing that I really do NOT get about the military... how can they crucify one man and do something that is going to affect him the rest of his life without any proof, how come they wont rightfully, honestly and correctly investigate this case... why are they so set on doing this all the wrong way!!!! Why would they rather close this whole case and convict the wrong person instead of ttaking the time to find the actual person who did this... I dont get it and it really hurts... People not doing their jobs correctly is going to affect my husband and my life like its going too, and put us in such a difficult position... words dont justify how betrayed I feel, I lost I feel, and how completly helpless I feel.


What can I say to make my husband less stressed, Im scared to death but yet need to find the words to help him get through this, I need to find the words to make sure he knows I will always be here, no matter what shit either of us go through... I just feel like I have my hands tied behind my back, like no matter how hard I try or how much I want to help, I cant..I cant do anything, I cant make this go away...I cant help prove his innocence.. and I cant find the right words to explain any of it, or help make him feel better... I just feel so helpless, so insignificant, so worthless, so.. just not good enough!!! :(  God please help us get through this... because it's way out of our hands now!!! <3

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

This quote has more meaning to me and Brandon right now, than just about anything else!! For those of you who don't know whats going on with us right now, just know that we are going through a few things (no not marriage problems or issues..just life) and we could really use the extra prayers!! We have alot of decisions to make in the next few days that are going to impact the rest of our lives!! I'm personally really pissed about the whole situation because plain and simple... it's just not fair.  It's not fair that my husband has to go through something like this when he is nothing but a great person, and has dont nothing but be completly open and honest with his co-workers and he is genuinely a good person!! I just dont get how certain things work in the military.. and its really frustrating that something that isnt true is going to be affecting the rest of our lives!! I just dont get it, and frankly don't like it.. but what can you do about it?  For the few of you who know what is going on right now you know how difficult of a decision my husband and I have to make in the next few days.  So especially for those of you who understand the situation, please any help or advice in the situation is greatly appreciated... and those who have already given that thank you from the bottom of our hearts we truely are very thankful for everyones inputs and advice right now!!


The last couple of days have been very stressful on us, but at the same time it just shows how strong of a relationship Brandon and I have.  No matter what we will always be there for each other, and always have each others backs!! I trust my husband with every ounce of me, and I bet my life on his word!! So when someone tries to break that trust, it doesnt break us down, it just strengthens that bond.  So even though I would give anything to not have to be going through what we are going through right now, but honestly thank you... thank you for proving to everyone that nothing is going to break us down... thank you for trying and failing..thank you for show US how lucky we really are with one another, and thank you for showing we sometimes take small things for granted and helping us put things into a better perspective!!


This whole situation has also shown us how we really do put too much emphasis on small things, and we blow them out of proportion in how bad they really are.... I have always considered myself to be more mature than the majority of people my age, but this whole situation has made me feel like I have gained years of knowledge.. I feel like I might not have really been as mature as I thought, because now I really feel different. But again, I cant stress enough how much we really need everyones prayers for the best possible outcome in this situation!!!  An I guess like they said, what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger...well baby get ready to be stronger than we ever thought possible, cause no chance in hell we're gonna let this bull shit bring us down!!! <3 I Love you so much Brandon Joseph, and I'll always be there for you! :)